thanks GOD, I got this experience

I don't know why, today I wake up in the morning, and realize that start from today, everything will not be the same with yesterday. even it hurts, I thanks to God, He give me this experience since I know that tomorrow I will face something harder than this and He prepares me for that

well, I know what I'm doing and I know this will be the consequences
and I do really thanks GOD, I got this experience even before ...

something that I learn the most:
1. a long the journey of you life, you will really know who is your truly friend (only your truly friend who understand you the most and can accept you whoever you are)
2. you can not expect all people will like you
3. being honest and tell the truth in communication is super important

and let me ask you something, what will you do if:
1. here, you don't know anything and people who you asked always said that everything is alright
2. suddenly you know that it is not alright in a very last minutes
3. you want to increase the capacity of the people who you loved
4. you know that the world to face is level 10, meanwhile the things that being done there is level 7, and other competitor doing level 8.5 - 9

then what you done is tell the truth and give the truth

and you got a resistance even a rejection from people who you think will understand you the most

later in final, something that you feel is
"well, they just not that immature enough to face this, and yeah I did mistake, I supposed not to push them in something that is not their level"

and then, you start questioning again

what should I do to increase their capacity so that they can face something that inevitable will face in the future?

I don't blame to any people, and I feel ok with every respond that you give to me

I just want you to know that the reason I did this only because I love you and I want you to be better so you can have more value added compare to your competitor



*hmm.. now I know why it is so not easy to be parent :D *